Random thoughts about Christmas | hab

Hello strangers!

So here we are again, at that time of the year: Christmas. What do you think about Christmas? Do you love it? Are you excited about it? Will you celebrate this wonderful holiday with your loved ones? Ahh.. I have so many questions to ask you strangers, because to me, Christmas is rather strange. Almost 21 years I've been around, and I still can't figure out how to feel about this. 

So I leave you these random thoughts, hoping that I'm not the only one out there with these things in mind. 

Gif from Cindy

1. When I was little, I thought Santa was real. I never met him, but my sister and I always got presents when we woke up on Dec 25. For me, it was enough evidence. I even made a poem about it:

We went to sleep,
nothing was there,
then we woke up,
presents everywhere!!

It was magic! 

2. My parents told me to write Santa every year, even when we're not christian. I remember asking them: 
"We're not Christian. We don't go to the church. Why does Santa still visit us?"
"Santa's very generous. He gives gifts to all good kids."  
"Why does Santa hang our presents on the door knob? He always climb down chimneys on TV." 
"Oh sweetie, we don't have a chimney, do we? So Santa's gotta find another way."

And I believed every word.

From shakeshack

3. When I was 10, the truth came out. I was having trouble sleeping, so I got up to drink some water, and then I saw him, Santa! He was hanging a bag full of presents in beautiful wrapping on the door. He was my grandfather!!! I was a bit shocked, and quietly sneaked back to my bed. I remember staring at the ceiling and trying to process the truth. And when I get it, I was so happy. "I have the best family in the world!" that's what I thought. And I still do. 

4. Growing up to know that my family is the real Santa, the magic fades a little bit. But it's ok, I'd rather have what's real than what's not. I also got more realistic. After the reveal, every time my parents asked me what I want for Christmas, instead of asking for fancy toys, I just told them that "Santa knows best," and "whatever he gives me I'm gonna like it" ^_^

I love you Santa!

5. As time flied, I also grew some inches. When I was a teenagers, I learn to give gifts. And it felt so good. Whether it's just a candy, a Christmas card, or a small gift, it always cheers me up to see a smile on a friend's face. I didn't always get a gift back, but I didn't care. Just hearing "Thanks! I love it!" was enough.

Giving is a good thing ^_^

6. But then came a dark time when Christmas was such a terrible thing to me. I think it's because of my forever-alone-vision, which makes all good things seem terrible. From high school to university, I was surrounded by couples. I see love everywhere I go, smothered by love but not being a part of it makes it worse on the holidays. And snap! Just like that, Christmas and all other holidays just became couple-special-time. As if being alone wasn't enough, my friends kept asking me what to give their bf/gf. I hated it, to my guts!

anti-social hab =,=

Because couples ruined Christmas for me, I had to turn to other littles thing that makes me like Christmas again, like...

7. Socks!!! I was given socks for Christmas for years. And I love it!! 

8. Putting my red clothes to good use. Coco Chanel said "When in doubt, wear red", so I've got lots of red. It's a good thing that Christmas comes around (:

9. Christmas shopping. My gosh.. all the shiny little things are just beautiful! I love picking out cards and little presents, and get lost in all the shining lights. And the sales too!! Whoaaa.. they got me all hyper and sht. Haha. 

10. Christmas Specials!!! Every show has its Christmas Special and they are often awesometacular >o< 

The Simpsons

Adventure Time

Looking back now I think number 6 is pretty funny. I'm over that stage. Why being sorrow while you can enjoy? It's Christmas for God sake! It's the time to celebrate! It doesn't matter anymore that I haven't found the other hab. It's the ones I got right now that matter. My family, my friends, my little students. They are the ones I care about, and the reason I celebrate Christmas even when I'm not a christian. 

I've lost so much this year, and learnt the hard way that when you care about someone, tell them. So I'm not holding back anymore. The love untold is the one not understood. Giving gifts and showing love is the real meaning of Christmas to me.

Happy Holidays strangers! I hope I see you one day.   

<3

Love,

hab

random things about hab

Hi world!

I'm hab. 

Lately, I've been having this thought that when I'm gone, people may not even notice that I'd been here. How sad. But I still have hope, you know, that someone will miss me, and try to understand who I was. So.. this is to you random citizen, a bunch of random facts about me.

Prepare yourself for the rain of random and useless facts
[all the gifs used in this post are from hoppip]

1. My favorite movie of the Star Wars saga is Episode V: The Empire Strikes Back. 

2. My favorite fruit is banana.

3. A glass of water always cheers me up. I love water more than any other type of drink.

4. I'm a clumsy piece of sht. I had my right foot burnt by boiling water when I was 5, my pinky broken when playing jump rope in 4th grade and my left ankle cracked when riding a bike in 5th grade. Not to mention countless times of falling to hard ground and down the stairs =,=

5. I love the color Green. Ever since I was first given a box of crayon, green has always been my first choice. I don't know why. It just makes me happy to see the beautiful green.

greeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeen!

6. I love cooking. It's what I can totally do in absolute silence. To be able to do other things, I'd probably need some music.

7. In 3rd grade, there was a boy telling me that he liked me. I was stunted for a minute, because I liked him too. But then I could only manage to say "Thank you" and got back to telling Goosebumps stories to my friends. The boy hated me with his guts after that, for I was being so cold. 

Just like that =,=

8. I told a friend once that The Conjuring is not a very scary movie. But the truth is that I had covered my eyes in almost every frightening scenes. 

9. I took a Karate class when I was 12, but then dropped out in the combat practice. My mom said I was such a coward. I guess it's true. But the main reason was that the whole class was sharing the same teeth protector and I found it so gross that I quit. I'd rather improvise when it comes to fighting, than put that teeth protector in my mouth. 

10. I have a habit of writing stories when I'm bored. It would be a great habit.. if I could just finish at least one story!! Seriously, my stories tend to start out really good, and have an intense climax too, but I could never find a good ending. So, my story writing process is like this: I write a story, cannot put an end to it, then hide it somewhere ridiculous (like under the mattress) and finally just forget the whole thing. The other day, when cleaning my room, I found a story that I wrote when I was 14. I was so happy reading it, until I got angry because it had no endings, just blank paper after "She got up and.." Oh my gosh.. where did my character go after that???

11. When I first meet someone, I'll notice their shoes first, then their fingers and their lips. I don't know why. It's just some features that I like in humanbeings. I love worn out shoes too, it means the person walks, a lot. 

12. When scrolling 9GAG, I always skip the scumbag steve or scumbag stacy posts. I just don't like those posts.

13. After watching an impressive amount of movies, I got the wrong idea that having sex means two people getting close to each other, kissing and panting O,O Gosh.. That's why I always keep a distance from everyone I've ever met. Silly me. After a while, I learnt in biology class that people have to put their "parts" where they fit in order to make a baby. Geez.. What a relief!

That's it. Some random stuffs about me ^_^